Things are looking good; which I guess proves that sometimes things really are darker just before dawn. I feel hopeful and excited. Brian had a long talk about if hes' doing better he needs me by his side doing better too and I tried to listen and intently and I"im going to try to do whatever it is he asks out of me :)

spiritually I am in a deadzone. I think I have tried so many many years to stay under the radar that I lost my purpose along the way. The purpose being to seve Jehovah fully. I know Ineed to take one or two steps at a time. I am ready to jump back on the wagon. It is just a matter of trust...

I am starting a new page of my life. I am going to get organized, get to the meetings, and go out in service. I am starting a new leaf where I put Jehovah first and my family and will be happy . I'll post more later!